The 'puppy murder' in my neighbourhood...

I am a morning person.... to be exact 'early morning' person... I jog from 5.30 if it is summer... U have to to be up early to have some fresh air, click some morning photos while jogging because from 7 am the mad rush begins with people moving around, cars screaming around...
Speaking of clicking photos, June has been a a great month for puppy photos... I realised, almost every street dog in our colony gave birth during this summer.... different sets of puppies at different corners... But street dog, street puppies... i wonder how are their survival chances in this world... Last week in the park... the mom dog was with 3 puppies initially... i found day by day the puppies went missing one by one... what is happening to these puppies...
Today i got the answer to that question... which was sad and that scene will haunt me for a long time...

I was just back from my jogging... and suddenly it started raining... i was in the balcony enjoying the change of climate because the summer was a killer and any decrease in the temperature was something i celebrate...
Then i saw my neighbour, 3 floors below, walking towards his car parked road side... The part of housing area i am staying, many houses don't have parking space, and they park their vehicles road side... This car was parked close to a construction site and the backside of the car was in a pile of sand...
As the man started the engine, i saw a dog coming out from under the car... She was taking shelter under the car in the pile of sand which might be cool... On a second glance i realised, she was not alone under the car, there were movements and those could be puppies.... The puppies were clearly on the path if the car was to go in reverse... As my thoughts were in why the dog is not going back to save her puppies and will the car go in reverse... in that fraction of time; which were couple of seconds, the car took a giant reverse turn and then raced forward... I couldn't even gather myself to scream at the man to stop before he started moving the car... everything was done in those seconds...
2 out of the 6 puppies were crushed under the wheel... i was frozen... it was raining and now the other puppies were getting drenched, the mom had to take them to somewhere... she started picking one by one with her mouth and moved to a shaded place at the construction site... once she was done with unhurt 4, she started checking the crushed bodies of the two puppies, she took one inside, that might have been breathing... but bloody and all as i can see from up... She didn't come out for a last one... it was in the rain, in that sand pile... I went down after a while to check... the puppy was crushed very badly....

I am not a very good per person, or like the idea of too many street dogs on the road... But that was gruesome... I live in country where there are no laws when it comes to animal safety... that is the reason, our streets houses way too many dogs... and with the kind of vehicles on road and rash driving these dogs are never safe... We have blue cross in India... but with my experience with them in Hyderabad, they don't care for any animal.... they pick them from one place and drop them in animal... We need strict laws, laws to control the animals and laws for their safety...

Also, people parking their cars by roadside in the summer... why cant they just check if there are any animals taking shelter under their vehicles... its summer and there are chances that a cat or a dog or a family of them might be underneath...

Though i am cursing the driver for the 'murder'.... i feel its also my fault... i couldn't and i didn't do anything to save those puppies... and that scene of that dog checking the crushed bodies of the puppies will haunt me for a while...

I dug way too deep...

I had no other choice other than to keep digging...
because i needed a way out...
With every inch covered, i thought i was getting closer and closer... 

I was in high hopes... 
I was quite excited in the beginning...
It all looked like an adventure...
After a while it started getting darker..
So i kept digging harder... 

But never i saw an indication of the end...
Now that i have dug too deep, the lights have faded... 

I think i am lost...

Summer heat effects....

Summer at its full form again... 

I hate summer, especially Delhi summer... its hard, its sultry, its unbearably hot.... and its drives me nuts...

This summer is harder for me as i am working/writing from home... With so much construction works around and the noise pollution associated with it plus the heat, sometimes the word 'unbearable' finds new meanings...

Last day, i found a way to stay sane in the heat wave... paint and brush.... my art set was dusted and unused for a long time... sorted the paints out... and there goes one of the outputs... that made a wall looked artistic, hid some of the stains on it and gave me a feeling of satisfaction...

i couldn't stop just with some hand prints... i had a stack of bottles in our kitchen; old and unused... took everything out and painted them with fabric paints... i was on a roll for almost half a day... i would have painted anything and everything in the house... but, by then i finished most of my fabric paints...

It was a crazy hot day... but by the end of it. i had my house decorated lots of colours....

Well, now i know what to do when the temperature soars and make normal thinking impossible... some splash of colour and some craziness with paints... 

The sounds of a rainy morning...

It is the sound of rain around me… It is pouring outside and I am just sitting here listening to every beat of it…

It is falling on the bricks of the building under construction nearby… I hear it falling on the railings of my balcony; drop by drop…

Because of the rain, not much human activity outside; silence in all the nature's noise...

Now I hear the thunder… is there lightning too?? Well, a helicopter just flew by adding to the sound effects...

I just opened the balcony door… and I can smell the rain now… 

The rain has slowed down now… people are back on street… vegetable vendors shouting… the construction work resumes… and life is back…

The rain was a short... but heavenly... Given me a fresh start to the day... 

No pains, no gains... so, take that big leap...

I have been a sports person all my life… And I know all about what it takes to win or lose… and what it feels like winning or losing…

No win comes without pain and sacrifice… the pain in getting up in the morning, working out… sacrifice in losing out in evening chit chats and fun for the practice… And the win coming through after all these, makes me feel, all those pain and sacrifice are worth taking… No win comes with sitting by a safe rock…

And we cannot win in life playing it safe… you need to play it hard… 2 years in my job, I knew it was a safe space… sitting by a 'rock' utilizing less than 5% of my abilities!!! It never made me feel like a winner… never!!

So, that's what I decided to take a leap… A leap can be risky if you fall hard… it will be a painful fall… but no pains, no gains… I am ready for a fall now, hard or soft… life will be meaningless if there is no risk involved or no pain involved…

There will be judgemental people around, who is definitely going to call me an idiot... I am preparing myself, not just to move forward, not to ignore the discouraging words... It is going to be a challenge.... a big adventure... and i am going for all the risk... 

When heroes fall

Jan 3rd, 2014 was a depressing day, more than i felt on 29 Dec, 6 days before that.... That was the day i strongly felt heroes can fall, heroes can fail....
My idols (mostly in sports) when i grew up included the greats Sachin, Schumacher, Sampras and Steffi Graf... Grew up at the heights of their careers... it was saddening when they touched the lows, but was never upset because they always gave their 100% during their peaks....
But on 29, Dec 2013 when Schumacher fell into coma to stay like that for days even until his b'day on 3rd Jan, it was unbearable.... The man, who redefined the need for speed, the man who re-defined 'win-at-all-means', the man who gave the thrills of speed on every single sunday mornings, afternoons, evenings, nights lay there on the mercy of a life supporting machine.... that killed me.... He didnt wake up on New year day, his b'day... he didnt deserve that....
We all have heroes whom we look up to... they give the motivation and push to go out and try the 'cannot be dones'.... And when they fall and never rise, i wonder where have all the powers which made them the 'heroes' gone.... I dont believe in luck....but all i pray is let some luck be showered on my hero....

Welcome 2014, be good....

Another year passed by.... i have no idea how to rate 2013....The fact is; it was an year with mixed feelings...
It was good, then it went bad.... then got better, further down the road worse.... Lots of things happened which made me smile, lots made me cry, angry, upset.... yet, i am here still, all in good shape...
End of the year, there were un-kept promises, unfulfilled dreams... All, i need in this next year is the willpower and lots of strength to kick more.... run more....
There were moments when i lost hope, but there were also sweet victories.... i need more of that this year....
I do not know how this year will turn out to be.... where it starts i know, how it ends i really don't know... All i can do is try my best to the very end, give my everything.... rest will be.....................