Sunday, November 16, 2014

One more week to race day!!!


It's here... almost here....
One more week to go...
Last day i collected my bib and all from the Marathon expo... since then the excitement is at another level...
So far... Running gear - check, nutrients, supplements - check, energy drinks - got it all...
Plan of action on the day - check check check (100 times)...
Only worry is the severe cold and getting a bit of arthritic related injury... deciding not to exert too much next week... Focus mostly on strength and stamina building... and not giving any room for panic attacks (last day, i had a nightmare - i got up way too late on race day)....

Well, getting ready physically and mentally.... 
Airtel Delhi Half Marathon, here i come....

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

My RunKeeper...


I have experimented with numerous fitness app ever since i had my first android phone… Whether it is for running or walking or working out, i always trusted some of them, especially the ‘endomondo’ which was the first among the many used…
What was cool about endomondo was we get to see the route map even after you share them in facebook or twitter… The speed, the distance, the calories burned looked almost accurate then… But, every app when they grow will come up with some bugs or drawbacks… What happened with endomondo for me was it made most of its services under premium (paid)… and other services needed lots more storage space which made my phone running slow…
So, i had to uninstall endomondo and then started my experimentation with other apps in googleplay… some apps, keep accurate fitness report… but when you keep the phone in your pocket, the report will be something else… some apps wont even show the running route map… or cals burned…
After reading many online reviews, i came across this app called ‘RunKeeper’… Almost perfect compared to the other apps i used… I can even keep my phone in my pocket; it wont affect in getting the proper gps… Pace, calories burned, distance travelled…. route map, everything looking accurate for me…
The awesome thing about the app is it update your distance, average pace and all every 5 minutes… For me, preparing for the marathon, it is a reminder every now and then… another cool thing i found was the data it keeps in website… endomondo, i could never open in my laptop and check my progress…

So, i am planning to stick with this app for a while… it keeps me motivated and gives me a record of my activities…

Saturday, October 18, 2014

The need to take a break...


So, finally good news!!!
The Airtel Delhi Half Marathon (ADHM) organisers accepted my application… My first real competitive marathon is coming… My past efforts in ‘marathon’ were only charity based or occasion based… Even last year’s 6 km run in ADHM was just testing the waters…
The training has been going on in full swing… With the new job and the timings, i get only an hour in the morning… to increase the pace and distance covered… That part of the training is going fine… my run app is congratulating after every run on the new achievements… I was excited on this…
But soon i realised, in the effort go faster i am ignoring the injury scare… a couple of minor scares last week… Also, the anxiety to do always one step more… yes, i was pushing myself way beyond my strengths… So, then i came up with this new plan… a break… Take a day or two off in a week…
Train hard for 3 days… take a break…. that day can be used to warm up inside… rest the over-worked feet… then come back to road stronger next day…. It worked wonderfully yesterday after a break… Also, the break is good in some sense, i am sure i wont get tired of this run schedule… There is always a possibility that our tired body with the run and work schedule force us to abandon the plan altogether after getting bored of the daily workouts!!!
So every now and then, a break is needed… It is not just a rest to the body, but also the mind… After a break, i always look forward to my day’s run/workouts… Also, i am working on new routes to run… the same old route bores me sometimes…. new plan, new route always challenge me… and i tend to do better when challenged….

So far so good at my end… working on other factors like diet and sleep hours as well….

Friday, October 3, 2014

Home, new home....

Finally, I am back to my space… After a phase of uncertainties and confusion, Delhi again…  So from West Delhi, to Gurgaon and now to East Delhi; the city is not leaving me….

I can proudly say, I have the many painful phases of shifting successfully:

The tedious house hunting phase – check
Moving the stuff – check
Cleaning up the house – check
Arranging the stuff – 75%
Setting up my study space – 90% (i am not satisfied)
Arranging my books – 0% (yet to figure out how to)


The house hunting was crazy, moving stuff was scary… cleaning up the house and arranging the stuff was painful… All i can think when i sit back now and type this blog: IT’S OVER!!! I am back to my shell… a new shell… but i am loving it…

Thursday, September 25, 2014

FINALLY, A SUCCESSFUL ‘FRUITS AND NUTS CAKE’…


My mom makes the best cake in the world! B’days, Christmas or some special guests coming over, our house used to fill with this amazing fragrance of her cake… People have taken the recipe from her and I really don’t know if anyone got success in matching her’s…
Its a fruits and nuts cake with lots of nuts and cherries and I have been trying the recipe for years, always been unsuccessful… Even i  tried with an old style electric oven, the kind of oven my mom uses…. Yet, it didn't change anything…. So many disasters, one among was an awful Christmas cake!!!
Ok, then came yesterday, my friend Meera's b'day eve… The decision to bake a cake for her was bold as it would be the cake for the birthday… I had to get it right!!! It was one of my lucky days i say, eventhough the day drove me crazy because of few people in my life… So, getting a recipe work, after so many attempts…. i call it a moment!!!
The cake was a success, eventhough i was not happy with the fact that it could have burnt and got a lil’ dry…. I was happy when i saw the cake getting over, piece by piece taken away… A chef’s satisfaction…
So here I am sharing this amazing recipe…. with few changes from my mom’s original recipe….

Ingredients:
1 cup plain flour
1/2 cup chopped cashew nuts, black raisins, cherries
1 cup caster sugar (can be slightly less than 1 cup)
2/3 cup butter
3 eggs
Powdered spices – 1 clove + 1 cardamom pod + small piece of cinnamon
1 tsp baking powder
Few drops of vanilla extract
A pinch of salt

Method:
1. Pre-heat oven to 350F / 180C.
2. Add 2 tbsp of flour into the nuts and dry fruits and mix them well. Set aside.
3. Combine the flour and baking powder, spices, and salt. Set aside.
4. Beat the butter and sugar until fluffy. Next, add the eggs one by one and beat.
5. Add vanilla extract to the above mixture.
6. Now, add a spoon of flour mixture and fold. Once it is used up, add the remaining flour mixture spoon by spoon so that no lumps are formed. Add the nuts and dry fruits mixture to this and combine them well.
7. To a tray greased with butter and flour sprinkled over, pour the batter and bake for 45-50 minutes until the top turns brownish. Insert a skewer into the cake; if it comes out clean, your cake is done.

Notes:
1. I usually fry the cashews slightly in butter. Fried, crispy cashews in the cake, to me, tastes better.

2. Keeping the fruits and nuts mixture in flour is important. This is to prevent them from sinking to the bottom of the batter while baking.

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Books in my Kindle…


For a bookworm like me, getting some new books to my self has always been a joy… But since i moved around cities for research and job, i couldn’t maintain my collection properly… Lost/donated many of my books in the process… Now, i am in the middle of another move… So, I have no other choice other than turning to the e-books…

Kindle has been in my wishlist for a while… Many of my friends who were using it for years has been advertising the product… Yet, I stuck with the ‘real books’ because i love the feel of sitting in a room surrounded by books, taking them out once in while, turning the pages and storing them back in shelf once i finish… The joy at the last page of a good book when you are about to finish it, you will never get that from the bottom of an e-file… that is happiness at another level!!!

But, as the ‘to read list’ became longer and longer, i realised that if i start buying all those books i won’t have space to keep them… So, i finally moved the Kindle from the wishlist to the cart!!! It was a pleasure to have a kindle hand… especially when i started to get loads to books to store in it… 

Though i will miss the feel and smell of paper, i think i will love this new reading arrangement… infact i have been reading some of the Physics e-books from my laptop… moving those to kindle and reading from there is a huge relief to my eyes… Also, it would cut down the distraction of internet…

My only problem with the kindle is the keyboard mobility… typing to make notes is quite difficult there… hopefully with some practice i can do better….


So, here I am ready to move around with loads of e-books in Kindle; saving some trees for the paper…. i am consoling myself with that fact….

Saturday, September 6, 2014

Perseverance!!!



Perseverance
/pəːsɪˈvɪər(ə)ns/
noun
            persistence in doing something despite difficulty or delay in achieving success

Read the following snippet from ADULTERY (Paulo Coelho) few weeks back:
A rose dreams of enjoying the company of bees, but none appears. The sun asks:“Aren’t you tired of waiting?”“Yes,” answers the rose, “but if I close my petals, I will wither and die.”

Yes, perseverance… sustaining life!!!

Thursday, September 4, 2014

Don’t call me a foodie... I am a culinarian...


Using the word ‘foodie’ is controversial… mostly because different people have different perspectives regarding that terminology… Most of the times, it’s considered a word to represent someone who overeats… not someone who loves and enjoys food…

Even if it’s tagged with people who love food, i cannot call myself a foodie… my love for food is not always the ‘eating’ part… ofcourse, i love a good meal, cookies, and more cookies, and occasional treats… But, i enjoy food more in ways such as cooking, and food photography…

So i came up with this term that would describe my love; culinarian… Yes, love food in my own ways…

"Food, in the end, in our own tradition, is something holy. It’s not about nutrients and calories. It’s about sharing. It’s about honesty. It’s about identity."

Kitchen Queen…

Where do i start… i polished my culinary skills while i was in University of Hyderabad…. the birthday parties and friends coming over for after match parties, everybody has to be a chef… I started inventing and experimenting with recipes during these parties… it was fun fun days in kitchen…

During those days, my favourite TV channel was the travel and living channels and the favourite show for a long time was ‘Top Chef’… i can watch the cookery shows all day… they provided more inspiration and i began treating cooking as an art…



"Cooking is like painting or writing a song. Just as there are only so many notes or colours, there are only so many flavours - it's how you combine them that sets you apart."

Food photography…

Ahh… how i love being a shutterbug… even though my peak photography days were in the past, i still love clicking now and then, here and there, for Instagram mostly… food being something i would never miss… A well-set plate, a colourful dish in the pan… food have such vibrant colours and my camera loves all those…


Making a simple nachos and salsa looking awesome...

People always judge me by my food-related photo uploads and my interest in cooking… it’s all the ‘how’ and ‘why’ i get from people, especially my old Hyderabadi pals who know exactly what kind of ‘foodie’ i used to be… How can someone who does not enjoy eating food can have interests related to food!!

Well, i don’t have an explanation either… I just love what i do… because i am a culinarian….

What I’ve enjoyed most, though, is meeting people who have a real interest in food and sharing ideas with them. Good food is a global thing and I find that there is always something new and amazing to learn – I love it!    – Jamie Oliver

My competitions...


I love my competitions… I just love them…
They make me work harder everyday…
They make me take longer strides when I walk…
They make me go faster when I run…
They make me take risks…
They make me go the extra mile…
They make me fight for my victories… and make my victories sweeter…

Yeah, they make me stronger everyday…

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

Bit of rain, a good book and truckload of ideas for writing…


Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces us up… There is really no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather…

Summer almost said goodbye… Much awaited monsoon finally giving us occasional appearances… The temperature has come down… there is always a wind or breeze around… What more I can ask for in a place like Delhi/NCR…

The weather was perfect again today…. Drizzles in the morning while jogging… Some harmless clouds were around all day… The day stayed windy and cool….

The weather was refreshing enough, it has set a mood to take a good book in hand, finish few chapters…. to enjoy a hot cup of tea over a cricket match… to write down pages and pages of ideas bursting out….

Delightful…. that’s how i describe the day today…

I have hundreds of things to worry about on an average day… But the rain has brought that inner peace which made me forget all those for a day and do what i need to do; never to move away from positivity…


Still positive, still strong…. still hopeful…. to live another day!!!

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Jogged in rain…

It was 7 am and still dark… I wondered if the clock was showing wrong time…

Got out putting on my run gear only to be in cool drizzle… The condition of roads in a rain was quite bad… so i headed to the park where only a handful of people were walking/jogging… most people do not want to get down and get wet… sad, i thought… such a pleasant atmosphere… tiny raindrops falling on your face and all green around… the fresh air…. heaven!!!

Took off for a run in that light rain… i thought i would just do some 4-5 rounds in the park… ended up doing 7-8 laps… and then 30 minutes walk… the rain was such a motivator… I always enjoyed running in rain… it is always a heavenly experience… Once or twice i had played football in rain too… indescribable joy!!!

Monsoon is slowly setting in Delhi/NCR… making use of most of the rainy days!!!

Friday, August 29, 2014

Raindrops on my window…


Summer has been hard… It was a killer… crushing spirits, destroying peace… it was hell… Even in August, it feels like May… Survival in Delhi depends on your ability to survive summer which covers 75% of the days in an year….

It was Thursday…. Back in Delhi after a short ‘vacation’, expecting to be fried in the oven once again… then i saw raindrops started falling on my window, it was lashing out a while later…. raining hard…

The rain drops fall on my window pane.
The rain drops have set the tone for the day.

When it rains hard, the noise around you feels like silence… the sound of rain which quietens everything and create that silence which is not at all empty…

Sitting in that silence, ignoring everything everything else around you… that was heaven!!!

The summer sun is not meant for me.
I belong to the rain.

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

A ride through the memory lane…

I don’t have any friends left in my home town Thodupuzha for me to hangout when I come down here… Also I take a trip to home during off seasons when even nobody comes for a vacation…
So it is a lonely ride whenever I go out to the town…
Initially, couple of years back, it was weird for me and I used to drag my brother along in case I need to go out…
But recently I started enjoying my lonely rides…
I can move around here and there making a ride through the memory lane… By my old school… My college and the cafe we used to hang out during college… Our favourite church…
I made a similar trip today… It was quite emotional this time around… I went out as I was feeling lonely at home and bored after reading 2 books on a stretch… A lonely ride after lonely couple of days at home…
Passing by all those places I was been with my gang; suddenly I was sad and started longing for the old days… The good old days!!!

People have moved away and the connections are through only social networks… Wondering when I will be able to meet the people I have grown up with again!!!

Monday, August 25, 2014

My dad's vintage radio...


My dad keeps a radio at home… it is not a decorative piece…. but he still listens to it… morning news to evening chat programs and various other shows i have no idea about… the same old All India Radio stuff….

It’s weird whenever i come home listens to those AIR tones early in the morning… I wonder if anyone listens to radio anymore… there are 100s of channels in TV these days, and radio to people of this generation means the FM channels we listen in our car or phone…

This radio of dad’s is quite ancient…. It was there in our ancestral home for a while… when everyone left the home and our grandmother came to live with us, my dad brought that radio here… Since then that is his daily giver of news… Considering him being a guy who loves to live in the past, i wonder if he ever stop using that… He loves it, he refuses to part with it… because to him it was part of his story, his times…

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Scary new beginnings....

I am freaking out... i am going crazy...
Tomorrow marks the beginning of a new race for me... a new beginning...
The path is not set properly, it drives me mad.... it makes me tensed...
Its not going to be an easy journey from here on...
I am going to ride along the roads i have not travelled before... going to walk the paths i have not seen before...
The thought of all these scares me...

But i have to take this journey on my own... i cannot wait for anyone.... its my journey.... i am going to be my own leader... my own adviser... my own motivator... it is scary, it is difficult... but i have to... because its my life... its my war... its my fight...
Yes, its my war!!!!

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Of depression....

Yesterday i woke up with the news of Robin Williams' suicide... He was one of those kinds of people whom i thought might living a happy life... one who is rich and make people laugh... comedian, a successful actor... what else he needs in his life!!! But he was in serious state of depression and that one moment of lose of control, it was all over...
News like that make me think being a rich guy he could have many things to hang on to, than taking his life... Then why did he do something like that?

The truth is we cannot judge the life of others unless we are in their shoes... Everyone has his or her own bundle of pain and agony which eats the happiness and can push you at times to deep well of depression...

I have been in situations like that and now it is scary even to think if i had done something wild... I thank god that my mind was strong enough for me to get out of the situations... it could have gone much worse for me... But ended up ok...

Many judge people with depression... especially in India where an average youngster has to live a life fulfilling the expectations of 100 other people in his life... The pressure to make it to the top in this competitive world is not easy these days... One failure can put you down in such a way that you wont be able to get up back to your feet... 
The society, especially the family, instead of judging someone on his her her failure has to understand the pressure one is going through and should get him or her the required help... Encourage to fight again... get to counselling...

Anyone can fall someday... it wont be a smooth walk for anyone in life... So, it is important to hold on to the positives in life... In times of woes, those will strengthen our minds to get up...

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

The pleasure of speaking in your mother tongue...

I don't know when was the last time i spoke in my mother tongue this long... Had a long chat with an old friend of mine from hyderabad university.... and then i realised how bad i am with the language now eventhough i can still speak...
I struggled initially to get the fluent language along... i was missing the normal talk... it was mostly made up...
But i felt good... and then i got better... 
It was a pleasing experience in all...

The fact that i chat with brothers and cousins mostly in whatsapp... and my parents' calls are as short as a 'hi' or 'bye' or 'how are things'... and catch up with other mallu friends in facebook...
Also, here in Delhi i don't hang out with any malayalees.... so, the chance of speaking in malayalam is zero on a normal day... 
Probably i should call up people more to get the speech going... before i forget all the key words and slang...

Sunday, July 27, 2014

The last Monday of July...

It is the last Monday of July...
And what is special about the last Monday!!! There was something mysterious about the day from morning...
The sunlight was not there at 5.30.... whole summer i used to wake up exactly at 5.30, because that was the time when the sunlight penetrated through my window curtains when how thick it was...
I was out in the balcony... its a cloudy morning...
Mondays are not lazy Mondays for me these days!!!
So, there was no spirits lacking for the morning jog....
But as soon as i stepped into the park for jogging, the sky opened up and it started pouring down...
Took shade for few minutes... and but then i couldnt resist running into rain...
And i took off in the rain... jogged few rounds... in rain....
The best feeling ever.... the best start for the week??
Again... Monday, the last Monday of July!!! Lots of hope for this week.... fingers crossed... hands folded...
Hope.... yes, hope!!!!

Thursday, July 24, 2014

Woes of an Internet addict...


I am one of those Internet addicts who feels restless with an Internet-less laptop... 
A laptop without internet is as good as useless... 
Last month's Internet plan got over a day before the scheduled validity... and i woke to a  Saturday morning without Internet... I was using MTS and the recharging was mostly online before the validity getting over... 

This time, i don't have the option for online recharging because even my phone internet was not active... The second option was to go to the MTS store which i know was quite far... you need to get ready, take a metro and recharge and comeback by evening...

So i took the easy way; recharge vodafone... and use in the dongle... Unfortunately, at 10 am, the man at the local phone store didn't give me much options and i ended up recharging a low data plan... means i have to be really careful in the downloads...

I am used to a unlimited plan at any time and this plan made me quite uncomfortable... like closing the connection even when I am not using... I am so hooked to the news and updates and other activities that when the notifications stop coming, i feel like i am shut out from the rest of the world... Even when i am reading a book or doing something else, i would always look up for updates... i need all the updates to keep coming... 

This whole week had been irritating with internet woes, probably i will change my plan next week... But the whole process made me realize how addicted i am to Internet... what if i ended up some place where there is no connectivity of any kind... I will sure go insane in no time... 

Getting out of this Internet, should be a slow process... Reducing the internet activity can be tough... Facebook and twitter and score updates on the match days are the worst... cant just get away from them... for me, it will need quite a lot will power to stay away...


Friday, July 18, 2014

The wait for that call which never came...

I kept glancing at the phone every now and then.... even though it was never on 'silent'...
Infact, the sound settings kept it in 'loud' mode rather than the 'normal'... just in case... if i am away....
And every now and then i kept checking the range; should not lose the call.. if in case the phone goes off the range...
Even when i slept, it kept it right under the pillow...
All these... in wait for that call... which never came by the way....
Its been hours? days? weeks? (or may be months)... losing track of time... losing the patience...

In the end.... what is left is a broken heart... the pain and disappointment....

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Dealing with the WHYs...


Life poses more questions than answers these days... Because life is never fair and it never gives a feeling of perfection or satisfaction...
It's an uncertain world around... and it is sometimes scary even to think about the uncertainties in life...
There are lots of WHYs in my mind right now...

Why human beings have to struggle?
Why there is happiness and sadness at uneven proportions?
Why some sufferings never go away?

Life plays the game on its own rules... Its the human task to find the rules and play and then win...

Why can't we have the short cut to success?
Why there is no cheat code for this?

Looked around for answers and i know i will never get from any source... It is stupid to look for short cuts and cheat codes... But sometimes life challenges in such a way that the anger in me makes me look for ways... ways to win... ways to survive... ways to be on top...
Ah, life... you play harder now!!!


Friday, July 4, 2014

Me and my dangerous mind...

(random ramblings)

Sometimes what puts you down most may not be the discouraging words of others, but it is what coming from your own mind...
Your thoughts control you... 
It tells you things which make you feel better... It can also put you in a place where you start doubting yourself... 
Mind plays!!!
Dreams are soothing... But nightmares leave your day ruined...
Mind plays!!!
Thoughts can cheer you up as well as crush you... 

Controlling my wandering mind? Focus by meditation... throwing my lazy self out... more reading, more writing... more patience... 
Dealing with the most dangerous entity in my life!!! 

(feel much better)

Thursday, June 26, 2014

The 'puppy murder' in my neighbourhood...

I am a morning person.... to be exact 'early morning' person... I jog from 5.30 if it is summer... U have to to be up early to have some fresh air, click some morning photos while jogging because from 7 am the mad rush begins with people moving around, cars screaming around...
Speaking of clicking photos, June has been a a great month for puppy photos... I realised, almost every street dog in our colony gave birth during this summer.... different sets of puppies at different corners... But street dog, street puppies... i wonder how are their survival chances in this world... Last week in the park... the mom dog was with 3 puppies initially... i found day by day the puppies went missing one by one... what is happening to these puppies...
Today i got the answer to that question... which was sad and that scene will haunt me for a long time...

I was just back from my jogging... and suddenly it started raining... i was in the balcony enjoying the change of climate because the summer was a killer and any decrease in the temperature was something i celebrate...
Then i saw my neighbour, 3 floors below, walking towards his car parked road side... The part of housing area i am staying, many houses don't have parking space, and they park their vehicles road side... This car was parked close to a construction site and the backside of the car was in a pile of sand...
As the man started the engine, i saw a dog coming out from under the car... She was taking shelter under the car in the pile of sand which might be cool... On a second glance i realised, she was not alone under the car, there were movements and those could be puppies.... The puppies were clearly on the path if the car was to go in reverse... As my thoughts were in why the dog is not going back to save her puppies and will the car go in reverse... in that fraction of time; which were couple of seconds, the car took a giant reverse turn and then raced forward... I couldn't even gather myself to scream at the man to stop before he started moving the car... everything was done in those seconds...
2 out of the 6 puppies were crushed under the wheel... i was frozen... it was raining and now the other puppies were getting drenched, the mom had to take them to somewhere... she started picking one by one with her mouth and moved to a shaded place at the construction site... once she was done with unhurt 4, she started checking the crushed bodies of the two puppies, she took one inside, that might have been breathing... but bloody and all as i can see from up... She didn't come out for a last one... it was in the rain, in that sand pile... I went down after a while to check... the puppy was crushed very badly....

I am not a very good per person, or like the idea of too many street dogs on the road... But that was gruesome... I live in country where there are no laws when it comes to animal safety... that is the reason, our streets houses way too many dogs... and with the kind of vehicles on road and rash driving these dogs are never safe... We have blue cross in India... but with my experience with them in Hyderabad, they don't care for any animal.... they pick them from one place and drop them in animal... We need strict laws, laws to control the animals and laws for their safety...

Also, people parking their cars by roadside in the summer... why cant they just check if there are any animals taking shelter under their vehicles... its summer and there are chances that a cat or a dog or a family of them might be underneath...

Though i am cursing the driver for the 'murder'.... i feel its also my fault... i couldn't and i didn't do anything to save those puppies... and that scene of that dog checking the crushed bodies of the puppies will haunt me for a while...

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

I dug way too deep...


I had no other choice other than to keep digging...
because i needed a way out...
With every inch covered, i thought i was getting closer and closer... 
I was in high hopes... 
I was quite excited in the beginning...
It all looked like an adventure...
After a while it started getting darker..
So i kept digging harder... 
But never i saw an indication of the end...
Now that i have dug too deep, the lights have faded... 
I think i am lost...

Summer heat effects....


Summer at its full form again... 
I hate summer, especially Delhi summer... its hard, its sultry, its unbearably hot.... and its drives me nuts...
This summer is harder for me as i am working/writing from home... With so much construction works around and the noise pollution associated with it plus the heat, sometimes the word 'unbearable' finds new meanings...
Last day, i found a way to stay sane in the heat wave... paint and brush.... my art set was dusted and unused for a long time... sorted the paints out... and there goes one of the outputs... that made a wall looked artistic, hid some of the stains on it and gave me a feeling of satisfaction...
i couldn't stop just with some hand prints... i had a stack of bottles in our kitchen; old and unused... took everything out and painted them with fabric paints... i was on a roll for almost half a day... i would have painted anything and everything in the house... but, by then i finished most of my fabric paints...
It was a crazy hot day... but by the end of it. i had my house decorated lots of colours....
Well, now i know what to do when the temperature soars and make normal thinking impossible... some splash of colour and some craziness with paints... 


Wednesday, March 26, 2014

The sounds of a rainy morning...


It is the sound of rain around me… It is pouring outside and I am just sitting here listening to every beat of it…
It is falling on the bricks of the building under construction nearby… I hear it falling on the railings of my balcony; drop by drop…
Because of the rain, not much human activity outside; silence in all the nature's noise...
Now I hear the thunder… is there lightning too?? Well, a helicopter just flew by adding to the sound effects...
I just opened the balcony door… and I can smell the rain now… 

The rain has slowed down now… people are back on street… vegetable vendors shouting… the construction work resumes… and life is back…
The rain was a short... but heavenly... Given me a fresh start to the day... 

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

No pains, no gains... so, take that big leap...

I have been a sports person all my life… And I know all about what it takes to win or lose… and what it feels like winning or losing…
No win comes without pain and sacrifice… the pain in getting up in the morning, working out… sacrifice in losing out in evening chit chats and fun for the practice… And the win coming through after all these, makes me feel, all those pain and sacrifice are worth taking… No win comes with sitting by a safe rock…
And we cannot win in life playing it safe… you need to play it hard… 2 years in my job, I knew it was a safe space… sitting by a 'rock' utilizing less than 5% of my abilities!!! It never made me feel like a winner… never!!

So, that's what I decided to take a leap… A leap can be risky if you fall hard… it will be a painful fall… but no pains, no gains… I am ready for a fall now, hard or soft… life will be meaningless if there is no risk involved or no pain involved…
There will be judgemental people around, who is definitely going to call me an idiot... I am preparing myself, not just to move forward, not to ignore the discouraging words... It is going to be a challenge.... a big adventure... and i am going for all the risk... 

Friday, January 3, 2014

When heroes fall


Jan 3rd, 2014 was a depressing day, more than i felt on 29 Dec, 6 days before that.... That was the day i strongly felt heroes can fall, heroes can fail....
My idols (mostly in sports) when i grew up included the greats Sachin, Schumacher, Sampras and Steffi Graf... Grew up at the heights of their careers... it was saddening when they touched the lows, but was never upset because they always gave their 100% during their peaks....
But on 29, Dec 2013 when Schumacher fell into coma to stay like that for days even until his b'day on 3rd Jan, it was unbearable.... The man, who redefined the need for speed, the man who re-defined 'win-at-all-means', the man who gave the thrills of speed on every single sunday mornings, afternoons, evenings, nights lay there on the mercy of a life supporting machine.... that killed me.... He didnt wake up on New year day, his b'day... he didnt deserve that....
We all have heroes whom we look up to... they give the motivation and push to go out and try the 'cannot be dones'.... And when they fall and never rise, i wonder where have all the powers which made them the 'heroes' gone.... I dont believe in luck....but all i pray is let some luck be showered on my hero....

Wednesday, January 1, 2014

Welcome 2014, be good....

Another year passed by.... i have no idea how to rate 2013....The fact is; it was an year with mixed feelings...
It was good, then it went bad.... then got better, further down the road worse.... Lots of things happened which made me smile, lots made me cry, angry, upset.... yet, i am here still, all in good shape...
End of the year, there were un-kept promises, unfulfilled dreams... All, i need in this next year is the willpower and lots of strength to kick more.... run more....
There were moments when i lost hope, but there were also sweet victories.... i need more of that this year....
I do not know how this year will turn out to be.... where it starts i know, how it ends i really don't know... All i can do is try my best to the very end, give my everything.... rest will be.....................

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